Hard Decisions

So I had a meeting with my lawyer this morning regarding my case. Needless to say it wasn't the best of meetings.  I am now at a crossroads as to how to proceed. I essentially have three options. The first one I don't want to do. I just don't know.  Piece of mind doesn't fix my foot. Nothing will fix my foot. Going into depression because of an injury is frustrating.  I'm young and pretty much I can't continue doing things that I love to do because of the pain I'm in almost daily sucks. I miss dancing. I miss Zumba. I miss being active cardio wise. Because of this injury I have gained about 60lbs. You wouldn't really notice it looking at me, but when you get asked all the time "when you're due" you know it is there. I want to lose this weight, but I dont know how without incorporating cardio. I already eat well, but that doesn't get rid of the fat.
It is hard to stay positive when your youth has been taken away from you. If the pain wasn't so bad, I would just work through it. But with that I worry that I could make it worse. Although with my foot already being slightly deformed,  how much worse could it get?

Grinch Time

This  is going to be a bit of a rant. I completely understand if you want to skip this post all together as it is not going to be one of the greatest moods. You can call me a Grinch but it is what it is.

I do not like Christmas. As I have grown up, my hatred for Christmas has grown also. I know that some of it stems from childhood. Dad being a trucker, was not always home for Christmas. But a lot of it stems from the commercialization of the holiday. I do not understand the purpose of celebrating a holiday where a lot of people go into debt trying to get everything that everybody wants. I know that I am guilty of doing it in the past, which is a partial reason as to why I am in the financial hardship that I am in currently. It seems that no one celebrates the joy of coming together with family and celebrating. It has become all about the presents. For example, I was appalled when one of my nephews last year stated that, “He only got….” I love my nephew, but to complain about the amount of presents that you got does not show the true meaning of Christmas. Yes it is a holiday to celebrate Jesus’ birth. But I think of it more as a time for everyone to come together and spend time with your family. The same nephew last year also made his father very upset as he wanted to spend time at Nana’s (my Mom’s) house playing with me instead of going with the rest of his family (dad, stepmom, and siblings) to visit his stepmoms mother.
It is not uncommon for me to go into a deep depression during December. Unfortunately it started a little earlier this year. Pretending to be cheerful through this time of year is very tiring at times. This year we get to include the joy of trying to move right before Christmas. We had decided late last week that we would just wait it out until the house got sold. But with the circumstances that arose last night, the search has been reinstated. I had even set up our tree.
There won’t be any presents underneath it. It is just to have a bit of a festive feel to the house.
Well that is all I have for now. Hopefully the next time I post it will include some good news about our living situation.

It Is Happening Again…

Oh the joys of being renters.
So earlier this past week, I got home from a shift at work and I notice a sign in the front yard. I ask Justin about it, and low-and-behold it is a For Sale sign. Yay our landlords are putting their house for sale. At least they are going to try to sell the house with us in it. Except that we are going to try and find a new place before that. I have a list of suites to look at, now I just have to call them and set up appointments. If we’re lucky, we can be moving next weekend.
Although the part that really sucks is that we just started organizing our spare room. We have been here a year and only last week did I set up my desk in the spare room. So much for that. Hopefully our next place is bigger. Then we could actually have people over.
Anyways, just wanted to put a little update. I have to get back to cooking dinner before going to class. Ta Ta For Now

This is a rant

Okay. Take two of trying to write this post as the first one deletd itself.
This is going to be a rant post. And due to the above first sentence happening, I have foung another reason as to why I don't like posting from my phone. The first being that I can't edit posts as much as on the computer.
Anyways, so today already sucks and that is not good thing considering it is only 8:45am. Two things are pissing me off today. The first being our landlord being a freaking idiot. The second is work related.

So we will start with the landlord first.  The guy is so stupid. Since we have moved in, we have dealt with nothing but shit. It is getting extremely frustrating. He complains to us about his heating bill. Our two baseboard heaters are turned up full power and it is still freezing in our suite. I dont think he understands how cold it is in the basement. It sucks having to constantly be under a blanket. And because it has been so cold lately,  even though we wrapped the pipes to our laundry room in insulation, the pipes are still frozen. I now have to take laundry to my parents house. Its extremely frustrating.  The washer is on the verge of dying. The dryer doesn't always dry. There have been multiple times that I would of had to put the laundey in the dryer for a second time but haven't because it was too late to be running the machine as the clothes would then be really cold in the morning. 

Now onto the work rant. I cannot stand being at the tool store anymore. You get treated like crap unless you're related to the manager. Manager is addicted to methedone. Two of the other females that work here pretend to be nice to you then talk abour yoy behind your back.  I have had enough. I cannot wait until I can find a different job so I can leave this job. I could continue going but I don't have the energy to bitch right now.

Next post will be more cheerful.